the world doesn't always revolve around you...

sometime I just feel so tired...so tired of your selfishness...
so tired of being confuse of what you think and what you feels....
so tired of being so hard to understand of what you really want.....

I have give up most everything I dear most to help you achieve anything you want...
and there you are..giving up again...just sitting there licking your heart's wound...

If you don't really want it then just don't do it...it's wasting your energy and wasting mine....I'm okay with that but please stop nagging me with your wish...

If you do want it then pleaseeeeee don't give up easily on any bad news or condition you faced...it is real life...shit does really happen....

I think let's just call it a day to this project to stop me from hurting you and you from hurting yourself further....

Do everything you think is the best from you....let me just steps away from your thought....and I really don't care if you think that I don't care....

I do have problems on my own, and I do have a limited stamina, so be it... let us manage each other thought first...and please believe me that your peaceful state-of-mind and your happiness are the only objectives I after.....

Please be happy and be strong, dear......

Rain drops

it's early december...

drips..drips..drips...on the roof.....
what a peaceful noise in these lazy ears....makes me wonders...

that milions tiny dropplets just spew up from the sky, falling whereever they wanna go...
some just hit the roof combined with its fellows through the gutter and falls to ground...

some absorb by the earth some flowing continously through the ditch, meets with some other and made little flowing in cracking on the rocks gather and gather forming a river...

some that absorb by the earth is welled out, used to quench thirst, watering plants, giving lifes, some is mixed with poison and taking lives.....

some that forming the river giving lifes to the fishes and other aquatuaric plants, some made floods that drawn everything, taking lifes....

in the end sun will evaporates them and return to back to the sky....
from whoever they might be, from the filthiest to the cleanest, from the purest to the contaminated ones, all just plain simple H2O returning back to their same form as a vapour.....

Have you wonders that all the tiny droplets are acting just like us...
Each and everyone of us is just spew from above and start filling this earth....

Some of us is gather in great flocks other just un tiny flocks even solitary....
some of us are giving lifes and some us are taking lifes....

some of us in the filthiest form and some of us in the cleanest form.....
at the end we will all be return the our creator....

whatever we might be we're all just simple human beings with complex multi purposes....
the only thing that differentiate us is our creator give us mind to choose, choose to whatever form we wanna be.....not like H2O that just flows mindlessly.....

so everything are just up to us...isn't that great....
so in what rights we can hate others in other form, as they must be exist to co-exist us....to balance us....
as long as life exist this is the natural laws that exist and govern us......

so learn to accept it and appreciate every life forms in our fragile earth until comes the times when balance is no longer necessary and everything is just one uniform thing, we currently called it as God...the creator...

Like A Tree

Reposting from old blog

It's really fascinating to me to think about how's people life turned into.
Especially for people I knew since the early years of my life (thx to facebook for some).

Like a tree, life begins to emerge from the earth, with its simplicity to grow upwards, in a tiny secured environment, the world we knew, the friends we have that just as wide as our eyes can look into.

As time goes by, we are governed with natural principles, comply with law of probabilities and receiving greatest God given right, a right to choose, to choose in what direction we wanna grow.

Like a tree, the beauty of life shapes us like branches, suddenly life is not dull anymore, life is becoming more and more beautiful with its variance of chances and possibilities.

Like a tree, life's so fragile, the branches will grow old, dry out and fall back to the earth.

Like a tree, new life will begin to emerge with their own unique path and the old is fading away.

Appreciate differences, appreciate every path we have taken, appreciate every cycle, because that what shapes us and makes life is so damn beautiful.

-Nug-
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